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Kevin's Story
Kevin awoke after hearing the words, "prayer can be an obstacle to presence," Afterward, he spent long hours keeping quiet until something happened that was indescribable. For a long time, he believed that it was only an experience. All of this changed when he stumbled across a book by H.R.L Poonja otherwise known as Papaji. Like a koan these words made an impression, "calling it an experience is a way of tricking yourself out of it." Kevin returned to keeping silent. Suddenly, he got up and went for a walk. Enjoying the beautiful autumn day, he stopped before a tree and discovered the Seer. Coming from a catholic tradition, he could only describe this as "God looking though his eyes at the world," and what a very different world it was. Everything was luminous and alive. He fell on his knees in gratitude. What was this? What was he seeing? He couldn't put it into words. He couldn't put his finger on it. It was unlike anything before. It was a profound realization. For a while, he couldn't take anything seriously. Everything was an occasion to laugh.
Kevin continued to study and try to get a grasp on what had happened. It wasn't until years later that he saw that he was trying to fit a fresh insight into an old paradigm. Knowledge, rather than a help, became a hindrance, conceptual framework through which the experience was funneled. Trying to understand it, he missed a most profound realization. Enlightenment had found him, but not realizing it, he continued to search, separate, discriminate and compare. Reading the mystics became like comparing notes or journals. From time to time, the big picture became clear. There were profound moments of clarity. but having no guru, he was left to work out this existential experiment alone.
I meditated, studied, reflected, argued, had experience after experience, satsang after satsang. I sought out teachers for fourteen years. What can I say? It took me fourteen years to hear HERE.
Kevin holds a Masters degree in Sacred Theology from the Angelicum in Rome and is an ordained Minister of the Universal Life Church. He is a gifted writer, who uses meditations and parables to overturn prejudices and point out truth. No stranger to other cultures, Kevin has enlightened audiences in Rome, in the US and in India where he received the name Prakash which means light.
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Expectation brings frustration. This is the whole truth of suffering. Where do expectations come from? They come from "I".
I have been honored to sit with Eckhart Tolle, Neelam, Pamela Wilson, Michael Regan, Joan Tollifson, Wayne Liquorman, Nirmala, Mooji, John Taylor, Katie Davis, Sundance Burke, Jeff Foster, Marlies Cocheret, Jeannie Zandi and countless others. It is to these living examples that I am eternally grateful.
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