Hi Prakash :-)

It was a lovely feeling for a while - like a deep down something, you know? And a way that my eyes were seeing that looked different from before. But now I feel like I'm in the dark trying to find the light switch. I'm guessing that's not abnormal, and trying not to get too caught up in it, but if I have to sit with you every week to keep that feeling it might get a little expensive ;-)

Any suggestions?

Prakash,

Thank you for our time together in satsang. Your presence is such an amazing gift!

Blessings, MaryEllen

Hi Kevin.

I came to see you a few weeks ago on a Sunday morning. First I have to say that was a very powerful meeting. Peace pervaded me for sometime. My wife thought I was drunk when I came home, by how laid back and peaceful I was.

Rob

Dear Prakash,

I usually don't remember dreams. I had this incredible dream on the night when I made the appointment to talk with you.

I remember sitting at a higher place like a built up platform with stairs to the ground which was almost a story high. Then, I saw you. You came with a group of people on the ground level and called me. You were naked and the body was shining, but not anyone else's in the group. I was amazed to see you, and at the same time I became nervous. You called me to come down the stairs to meet you and the condition was that I must be naked to join you. There was tremendous fear in me to be naked and at the same time there was a tremendous longing to join you. Then, there was a split second trust and I saw me walking down the stairs to you. When I reached you, I was expecting to take off my clothes. You told me that you are happy that I came and I don't have to take of my clothes. It was such an incredible relief. Then, I realized that others around you were not naked...here I woke up from the dream.

When I called you... your first comment was: "Are you prepared to give up everything??????"......what a coincidence...being naked reminded me of that...and the fear to being naked was like the fear to give up the identity.

Talking with you brought me the same feelings. I had fear and a nervous feeling at the start, but by the end there was so much relief...

Thank you from my heart,

Suresh

Dear Prakash

Thank you for the session. It was so good to clarify stuff. There was such clarity and peace. There is so much joy and peace in the midst of all stories....I even had a car accident yesterday....was unbelievably peaceful......even though there were mind attacks in between....lots of laughter following the attacks.....

Really thankful to your help.....

Peace,

Suresh

Dear Kevin and Britt,

You two are quite a force, and radical too.

Michael McEvoy

Dear Prakash,

I met you last Saturday at the workshop/satsang. Being in your presence intensified the felt sense of awareness, a pleasant vibration in the body which feels like love. This is what I assume masters call Presence. It is with me often, in varying degrees. When the bodily awareness has been felt as fear, acceptance of that has found love beneath. And you reminded me through enquiry that this is what I am.

Mary Champagne

Kevin,

Thank you for the opportunity to share space and Being with you last night. It's always such a joy to see and be seen, like sharing in the most delightful secret.

Britt

What I experience so strongly around you is a sense of true spiritual poverty...and that is exquisite to me. Emptiness looking into emptiness...nothing into nothing. You are such a gift.

Britt

Lymrics of love and appreciation

from Barry:

There once was a teacher named Kevin who gave us a stairway to heaven. He showed us the clear light which made us feel alright, but sometimes he talks till eleven.

There once was a teacher named Prakash, who told me I needen't smoke hash. So I threw out my best bong, and went to his sat-sang, But now what will I do with my stash?

Though all things die and change... nothing means more to me than the greatness of compassion you show to me. I may never get it right Kev, but somewhere inside of this form is the heart of a gentle lion. Let not these seemingly difficult circumstances destroy that part of my self. I was speaking with a friend just the other day who commented that they see that I am not the person I once was to which felt totally vulnerable and this person thanked me for the way the words I speak give such comfort. I realized that sharing of presence does so much healing it's impossible to describe and more so because of recognizing that there was no "me" involved in this particular experience, but love speaking. That beautiful quality dear one is manifested in speaking with you and presence is you!

Namaste

Lovingly,

Angie

Hi. I'm Rachel, the girl from the back at the satsang you just had at Moksha. Now that I am home and a little "more myself," I want to tell you what was going on with me, a bit anyway.

As I was listening to you talk, towards the end, I became aware of a very bright white/yellow aura emanating from your head. Though I have offhandedly tried in the past, I have never seen anyone's aura. This struck me as an interesting experience and I tried to continue/expand it by looking at and listening to you deeply. When I did that, the aura would become brighter and the room would kind of change shape, like it was expanding and contracting at the same time (normally I would include a question mark in parentheses here (?), but I don't think I need to do that with you. Refreshing).

It would kind of fade when I got self-conscious, as if you could tell I was boring through you with my eyes, instead of merely listening and looking at you speak like I was before. Then, I got kind of choked up and my heart was racing.

That was about the time you asked me to come up. I wanted to come up because I felt this connection and wanted to know if you felt it or had something to say about it, but I also felt very strange, which made me very nervous and uncomfortable. All in all, I dont think I could have carried on a conversation with you or anyone else (and didnt!) until just now.

Thank you for the satsang. It was my first, though I have read much about the things you spoke of and have been a spiritual seeker since childhood (like you, with a foundation, ripped out and in small part replaced, in Christianity). Please put me on your email list. I would like to hear you speak again.

Take care,

Rachel

Thank you again for Wednesday. I am still "basking in the light," as you say. It is much stronger this time and accompanied by a strange burning (though not unpleasant) sensation at the back of my head/neck. It is just as you said, wonderful and ordinary. I have questions, but feel like maybe I should just go with the flow. What do you think?

Rachel

Prakash/Kevin,

Wow, something cracked. somehow what maharaj, maharshi, tolle etc. have been talking about arose in my consciousness and I understood. My ego grasps at it as i write. It wants to hold on to this profound experience. Hah! let it grasp. I lovingly embrace the winds of emotion, thought, feelings and everything that arises in this body/mind. I had been TRYING to stop my thoughts TRYING to get enlightened, and both eluded me.

The awareness that has always been there. It doesn't change while my emotions and thoughts whirl around in it. I come back to awareness/presence and watch it all pass with a smile.

I bought a private session thru paypal and left a message on your phone. let me know when we can meet. I deeply appreciate what you are doing and I look forward to meeting you soon

Bob Callahan

I feel I am speaking to a Guru's Guru.

Joel

I wanted to personally express my gratitude to you for your article in the July/August issue of Yoga Chicago. I also visited your website for the gifts of peace and being it provided me. I am a beginner, started yoga only about a year ago. To date, there have been significant, positive changes in my quality of life. I have much learning to accomplish yet, so I hope I haven't offended you with my praise. Thank you, again.

Namaste,
Angela

Yes! It is great meeting each other. I've been holding off this communication until I could put words to my experience(s). Whenever I put words to my experience(s) the experience disappears. The words I use are not able to convey this experience. Instead of taking on the frustration that wants to then show-up; I go back to nothing. Just saying experience negates the experience. What I do know is that without attachments, I'm left feeling perfect, whole and complete. Love for myself, Love for Everyone, Love for the Universe. Love. Perhaps the experience is Love. Acceptence. Connectivity. Being One.

Love. -Stavi! ~ Richard Zupkus

There is no separation in presence. That is where I connect with our silence. I am in love when I do that.

Beth

Hi Kevin,

It's quite interesting, but I didn't know of your existence the day before the satsang... I've been with other teachers in satsang before, but not with the kind of support you are providing... The teachers that I guess could be as helpful as you were to me, are not accessible for the private sessions since they are very popular and busy...

I don't remember exactly what the conversation was in the beginning... I do remember your last question... and after that it was just silence and I knew at that point there was nothing else that needed to be spoken.

As a side effect of being in silence for that relatively short period of time in the satsang over the phone, it's seems impossible to me to completely identify myself with the character that I have taken myself to be for so long. The habit of thinking this way is there, of course, but I can't really believe it anymore... This is a very subtle, but profound change... The whole idea of being concerned with what this separate person is gaining or loosing just dropped, for the most part.

I can't find any logical explanation for what has happened, starting from the beginning of the satsang with you - but I don't think any explanations are needed anyway...

With gratitude and love,

MK

In the nothingness I am free, I am joyful. Thank you.

Beth

Hey Kevin.

You are in my thoughts. It's really difficult to summarize in words, our wednesday night one on one. I feel as if a massive blockade has been removed from in front of where I stand. I feel that I can now walk freely. I can move my body this new non-constricted way. My arms and legs can dangle or even fall off, and it really wouldn't matter. I can breathe and feel the air coming in and out of my body. I have a better idea of the very insignificant things in life. I can brush them off. I can forget. I can be worry free, for I am free. I am awakened.

Thank you. I enjoyed the time I spent with you. You are truly one of a kind. Amazing, amazing.

Peace, Ellen

How can I possibly express the gratitude I'm feeling? I can't but I think you know. The gift you have given me is priceless. Today, at this moment I am so content and filled with power, presence, and joy. Your reflection you sent is my favorite. Let me tell you why. It is the truth. It's funny when I think about it, I've learned so many valuable lessons since I've met you. But most importantly was my lesson to remind me that I am human as well as a spiritual being and learning not to judge myself. How true that religious beliefs only take you part of the way. I was so stuck on the beliefs and now that I've surrendered to all that is, I'm not asking for anything, I want nothing, nor do I desire to experience more of what is already here and always has been. It just is and it's more than I could ever hope for.

So how do you feel? I'm impressed. It only took one week to get to this point. Granted it was one very intense week in which at times I thought I'd never reach my true self. Yes I see it now, I was trying and that wasn't necessary. As I re-read your correspondences now, things are falling into place. Give yourself a pat on the back and thank you for reminding me that which I already knew but forgot.

I just had to let you know, I'm definitely not the same today. I went to my R.C.I.A. class tonight and I was so changed that my sponsor even said she thought I was in another world. I said you have no idea. That dazed expression is stronger since this evening. I think people are gonna think I'm on something. I'm really trying to be serious and I break into laughter.

I'd be honored to share this with people. No, let's not keep this secret. The beauty in the now is so astonishing it can't be kept hidden. However, I'd also like to mention the following.

When I was first introduced to the idea of trusting my inner most feelings and beliefs to Prakash, I was very apprehensive. With every correspondence I was asked to let something go. I was holding on so tightly to my beliefs, and head knowledge that I couldn't see the truth staring me right in the face. Whatever your beliefs, allow yourself the experience to know your true self without limitations.

Your way, I am impressed with. It is very gentle, nonjudgmental, and peaceful. Do I think that you are God? No. Your mannerisms resemble the Christ to me and for that I enjoy speaking with you. I'm not talking about preconceived thoughts about who I think Christ is but who lives in me as well as anyone else who chooses to recognize him in themselves. You Prakash, have helped to reinforce that awesome knowledge and now I'm learning to live it. For others it may mean something entirely different and that's ok. My beliefs are just a part of the I Am. Have a wonderful evening.

Dear Kevin,

Do you know what a blessing you are? Thank you for speaking with me today. My best friend called me after I spoke with you and she could tell something was different. I really liked your song. It made me realize even more how much I want to return to singing. You definently are a man of many talents. Anyhow thanks again for your sincerity and helping to calm the storm within me. I hope someday I can return the favor in some way. Have a beautiful weekend.

Love,

Angie

For the first time in my life, nothing else mattered. That chaotic internal noise was silenced and replaced with serenity. I was overwhelmed with a sense of relief and protection. I realized the beauty of my soul and my existence. My body was right. My mind was right. The whole world was right. Acceptance. Everything was as it should be. I felt open and free and connected and bouyant. It assassinated my ego. I giggled like an innocent child. I felt like an innocent child.

I savored the clarity for as long as possible. Three days later, my ego was resurrected and I was grounded. Although the initial energy has diminished, I take comfort in the fact that within me there exists this universal love. What's more is the awareness that it has always been there and it always will be.

Leann Gaines

The time that I had with you over the phone was incredibly deep, as were all the times I have spent with you. I truly felt you, and it, that night. It was outstanding. I spent several days after our phone session just being...doing nothing. Thank you again Kevin. Sharing that with you was ----- ah is there even a word in the english dictionary to describe it????

Ellen

Kevin,

It is impossible to put what i am feeling at this moment into words but i'll try. Right now i am in a complete state of bliss which i have never felt before. My entire body actually feels like it is humming. Things that have caused me anxiety don't seem to matter anymore. i've never cared much for myself in the past but right now i feel at peace with my whole being. i have never felt such serenity or freedom before.

Kiki

My dear Kevin,

When my mind is "thinking" - and my patterns of thought turn to you and the profound teachings you have shared with me, I automatically let go...I let go of my mind and all of those "thoughts"...and I am present...and it is peace....

This room is bare...its empty...everything is gone...yet here still i sit...cross legged...in the center...everything surrounding me is white.

Impermanence. nothing in this room matters....if only i sit long enough, and hard enough, and still enough...mindfulness...speech...action...diligence...concentration ...compassion...I could be free...I could be free from these "feelings" that I am "experiencing"...for they are not even there. who else even knows what i am thinking at this very moment? no one. no one.

It is the void...it is everything and nothing...it is everywhere and nowhere...once this peak is present...there is nothing left to do...for everything is done...all there is to do, is just to be...its just like that...to be set free...free from the physical world....the source of all the misery....all imaginary disturbances....mere distractions.

A state of peace. Lying down at night, the eyes shall never be forced shut. They flutter like the wings of a butterfly ---- until they close naturally. It doesnt matter where I am...it's always there. it's like a quiet, continuous, constant hum....a vibration...it's always there. It's most present when in nature...when sitting under a tree....next to a freshwater lake...the grass...spring flowers....the leaves.....the sky....the sun...the moon...the wind...the rain...the snow....whether it's cold...or hot...or warm...it doesnt matter.....the body won't "feel" it. I'ts not limited....it's non-conditional....it's in the silence...2 persons....unaffected...wholly the present.....awake....this is love making.....

>It is more satisfying then anything that may have temporarily tickled me in the past....the void. It cannot be denied. It's there. It's here. It's everywhere, yet nowhere.......

I "think" of you often. I hope you are well,

Ellen